It has been three months now since I have held my baby girl and it seems like it has been three years. Ever since Kamdyn was born, I think I have felt every emotion possible. It started with pure joy when we brought her home and since then I have felt so many emotions, some I didnt even know existed. Most days, I think I am doing really well, and then I have those days that you just want to stay in bed. It is amazing how strong you are when you have an amazing family and friends, and the Lord right by your side. If someone would have told me that I would face this trial at some point in my life, I would say I could never get through it, but here I am. I was sitting in Relief Society and someone made a comment about when faced with a trial, instead of saying "why me?" say "why not me?' and that has made such a difference in my life. I have the gospel to lean on, we both have amazing families and friends, it has made me realize I would much rather be the one to go through this rather than someone who doesnt have the gospel, or doesnt have supportive families. The one emotion I have never felt is anger at Heavenly Father. I just have to remember that He is my Father and wants the best for me and He knows perfectly what he is doing.
